Friday, June 27, 2014

Healthy Body = Healthy Mind - Part 2a: Exercise


Exercise, another way to take care of yourself, can actually help fight off symptoms of anxiety.

The following article from the MayoClinic touches on many reasons exercise can help improve symptoms of anxiety and depression: Depression and anxiety: Exercise eases symptoms

After reading the article above, be sure to keep a lookout for post 2b which will discuss how I created a workout plan targeted towards lowering anxiety and stress in my personal life. 


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Healthy Body = Healthy Mind - Part 1: Eat

How am I expected to fight my cognitions if I am not physically prepared? Taking care of my body is the first step in taking care of my mind. If I have not eaten, am not well-rested and physically out of shape, I have not prepared myself to have enough mental energy to do anything with my anxiety. For this reason, healthy body = healthy mind.

This week's blog posts will cover healthy living. Today's topic: Food.


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I am definitely one of those people that cannot function when hungry. "Hangry" doesn't even begin to describe what I turn into without a sufficient source of food in my body. My family members know this about me and often times try to shove food down my face when I begin to get crabby. My ex-boyfriend even had a "monster" voice for me when I began to go off the deep end. He would make his voice go really deep and repeat "Me Clara Beth. Me hungry." Needless to say, without food, I cannot be expected to do any sort of exposure or cognitive exercise. To remain stable, I have started planning my meals as well as the types of food that go into my body. 

1. Snacks

I have a fast metabolism which means that I can eat a full meal and 30 minutes later be starving! To combat this, my meal plan currently consists of three meals a day (breakfast, lunch, dinner) with three snacks readily at hand (after breakfast, after lunch, after dinner). 


For my snacks, I like to keep things light and simple. Carrots, oranges, and bananas with peanut butter are just a few of the endless variety of snacks that are out there. Everyday when I get home after a long day at the office, I usually don't have enough energy to cook dinner, which means it is snack time! That's right, I eat to prepare myself just enough energy to cook food and eat again. For this time of day, my remedy usually consists of 2 pickles straight out of the jar. 

Did you ever use to watch Jersey Shore on MTV and laugh at Snooki's deep obsession with eating pickles? I can almost guarantee you that, even with her recent weight loss and new #fitfam attitude, that she still gets to indulge in this light snack. Essentially, pickles are cucumbers that have undergone a pickling process in a solution composed of vinegar, salt and optional spices. Because of this, pickles are a low calorie snack that provides electrolytes, vitamins. Sometimes known as a hangover remedy, they may have even helped keep Snooki from feeling terrible after nights out while filming the show. If you choose pickles as a good snack though, try and choose a brand that is low sodium as they can exceed your daily limit.


2. Meals

In case you haven't already heard, the Food Pyramid that you learned about in high school is long dead. ChooseMyPlate.gov is apparently all the rage today. One of my friend's let me know about this website. You can enter your age, gender, weight, height and physical activity, and it will give you a daily meal plan based off of the new health formula (pyramid replacement) consisting of grains, vegetables, fruit, dairy and protein foods. Now if you go to a nutritionist, I would listen to them over this site, but for a standard plan it is pretty good. The only category I am wary on is the diary as I once heard that we are not suppose to have dairy after a certain point in life. I suppose it is one of the ways in which humans relate to kittens. "meow"

The website provides many examples of each category. However, just in case you are interested, below are the five categories and how I tackle them. 

Protein


After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided that I am personally okay with eating meat. However, I have one rule before deciding to eat it - I need to know that the animal was not hurt in any way and lived a good, healthy life. In my opinion, it is our responsibility and moral obligation to take care of animals and treat them with love and respect. It is natural and healthy to eat meat, but if we are going to do so, we must treat the animal well. I prefer pasteurized meats where I know that the animal had the ability to enjoy sunshine, grass and food that is good for their diet. This means no cages, no hormones or artificial preservatives, not hitting, hurting, yelling at...no anything less than healthy, happy animals!!

If you are not interested in meat, that is completely fine. There are many ways to gain protein through different foods such as beans, hummus, peanut butter, etc. 

Grains



Grains are something I don't typically think about but often get incorporated into my meals. Grabbing a piece of toast on the way out the door on a busy morning, making wheat spaghetti for dinner to satisfy my weekly craving, substituting a bun for a whole grain piece of bread when taking a hamburger straight off of the grill are a few examples of the many ways I consume grains. To make sure I am eating the right kinds of grains, I make sure that the only ones in my house are healthy ones. 

Examples of what I try and keep:
whole wheat pasta
wild rice
whole wheat bread

Examples of what I try and ditch: 
white bread
white rice

One thing I will say is that I am from the south so don't even try taking my grits away from me (even if they are the bad kind)...

Fruit & Vegetables



Fruits and vegetables are so important to your diet. Make sure you leave room for them. Personally, I love fruits and vegetables, but I know that many do not. If this is you, try and get creative with them. If you simply do not like the way they taste, try and sweeten them up. One of my favorite desserts is blueberries with whip cream. It takes an already sweet fruit and turns it into a great dessert recipe to combat that late night cupcake. 


Remember that it is also important to try and find local fruits and vegetables that are in season. This will ensure that you get as many nutrients as you can from the meal. I know that fresh vegetables can sometimes be frustrating to purchase because they do not have a long shelf life. There are many unique ideas that you can find online to help solve this. I recently bought two giant piles of kale because it was on sale. To use it, I substituted it for lettuce on my hamburgers, made salads with chick peas for lunch and kale smoothies. That weekend, I was about to go out of town when I could tell that my kale was about to go bad. Instead of throwing it away, I cut up the remaining pile, dabbed olive oil on it and baked it in the oven. For the three hour car ride, I had delicious fresh kale chips to substitute my potato chip craving. 

Don't give up on your food. What makes the best banana bread? Overripe bananas

Dairy


Dairy is one of the products that I am planning to soon take out of my diet to see if it will help with certain allergies. However, when buying it now, I make sure that just like meat, it is from a pasteurized and well-treated animal. Another substitute are products such as almond milk. I mean, look how cute those cows are above? Don't you want them to live a good, happy life?

3. Know Your Dietary Restrictions

If you are gluten free, don't eat gluten.
If you are lactose intolerant, don't eat dairy.
Caffeine makes you anxious? Choose decaffeinated options.
Simple enough, right?

Actually many of these types of lifestyles can be very hard to keep up with and manage. Just remember, your body and health is important so don't give up! Eat what is best for you. Just like when fighting anxiety, things are easier said than done, but you know what is best for yourself and should try and stay true to that when it comes to eating healthy.

Here is a link to a good friend of mine's blog on gluten free eating.

4. Budget and Plan


For the longest time I told myself, "I will get healthy once I can afford it." Little did I know, I could afford it, I just was not budgeting correctly. Putting money into your food is investing in yourself, but it doesn't have to be expensive. Look at local places around you and search for blogs on eating healthy at low prices. I was able to find a local health food store that offers tons of coupons and serves only food without hormones or preservatives and humanely treated animals. I spend on average $5 more a week than I did shopping at Walmart. Some of my allergies have gone away, I have had an increase in energy, positive thinking and am overall a healthier person. Eating right is another way of taking care of yourself both physically and mentally and, in my opinion, that is well worth the price.  Personally, I don't worry about the calories, low fat options or diet plans. I focus on health.

Bottom Line:

It is not about losing weight, it is about being healthy. You can do that on a budget. Learn the facts, consult your doctor and start a nutrition plan. Invest in yourself - not tomorrow but today. 

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Posts Will Resume June 24th

Hello All!

Thanks for following my blog and keeping up with the page. Due to a camp I'm helping out with this week, I don't have much time to write. No worries though, blog posts will resume this coming Tuesday. In the mean time, be sure to subscribe to the blog via the link to your right. I send all of my subscribers an email every Monday. If you don't feel comfortable filling out your name, an email is all I need. I will update you on what was posted the previous week and what you might expect the next. 

A preview of this week's email blast can be seen below.

http://goo.gl/oJ9juV 

Peace, love and worry-free minds,
Clara Beth <3

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

A Must Watch



If you haven't already, please try and take 11 minutes out of your day to listen to this video. If you don't have time to sit down and watch it, play it in the background. It is well worth the time, and it is something that I believe needs to be heard by many. While I wish to keep this blog about my experience overcoming anxiety and OCD, depression and anxiety have a lot in common which makes many of his concepts apply. 



Recently, Breel had a poster designed which pulls one of my favorite quotes from the above TedTalk video. The quote, including his words surrounding it, are written out below. 

"...and more than anything, learn to love ourselves. Learn to accept ourselves for who we are, the people we are, not the people the world wants us to be. Because the world I believe in is one where embracing your light doesn't mean ignoring your dark. The world I believe in is one where we are measured by our ability to overcome adversities, not avoid them." 

Let's repeat that..."The world I believe in is one where we are measured by our ability to overcome adversities, not avoid them."

Encore Kevin Breel! Encore!


UPDATE: Poster is available for purchase here.


Monday, June 9, 2014

Saying Goodbye

This past week, I have had to say goodbye to many people and many things. Some I am not quite ready to write about and others I am. This post is not a true goodbye (which I have had to deal with this week), but rather an "I'll see ya later" to a very special work buddy of mine. 



One of the many lessons I learned this past week is that saying goodbye, while difficult, can sometimes be a beautiful thing. It makes you realize how wonderful something was - whether it be a person, a place in time, or an overall realization of life. This week, instead of being sad about change and attempting to control it, I decided to take a moment and be happy that I have people in my life that are worth missing. People who are worth the tears. There are many times that I caught myself smiling in my heartbreak because all it meant was how lucky I truly am to have had someone/sometime worth missing. 

Cassidy, I know it was difficult to read my handwriting on the card, so I have typed out my letter below:


(1)    I second Tony’s comment. - You can do many amazing and wonderful things, but telling a joke is not one of them. 
(2)    I can’t even write here. I’m just going to give you a hug for fear that I will leave this paper soaking wet and then Tony will awkwardly walk in on me, tears strolling down my face, writing it.
(3)    As you've pointed out in the past, I said I was going to stop writing and yet here I am, still doing so…Thanks for being such an awesome buddy both work-related and not. Thanks for making the office feel loved with your acts of kindness and heart-shaped leaves, showing me the cross in the bricks downstairs, laying random pieces of squash on my desk, in the beginning dealing with me randomly running downstairs and scaring your BFF just to pet her dog, stopping the car and having a totally insync moment saving a puppy, running in to let me know it is du-rag Tuesday with Aaron  sitting right there, and of course, always being an ear to listen, a person to laugh and talk with, a shoulder to cry on and a great hug giver. I know that if you were able to convince me to eat healthy, you can convince the rest of the world to do so as well. Congratulations!! I know you are going to do awesome at this new job and are going to love NY and being near the babyyy. I can’t wait to see what all this world has in store for you.
(4)    Try not to yell at any McDonald’s ice cream men on your way up there.

BEyonce, Clara Beth

Friday, June 6, 2014

So a Bear Walks into a Room...



I was sitting inside of a small square room when my therapist asked me to imagine that a bear had just walked in. Sitting on a chair alongside a wall, I looked around the room. To the left of me were two windows which I was sure could not be opened. In front was a long, white, wall with a two pictures hanging on it. To my right is a wall with a door. 

I close my eyes, imagining the room as it is. All of the sudden, a bear walks in, covering the only way out with its gigantic body. The bear starts lunging at me, trapping me in the corner, snarling its teeth. With saliva flying out, it roars. 


I take a moment to imagine every aspect of the visual - how it smells, the sounds the bear makes as it enters in the room, how it makes me feel knowing there is no way out but one. How do I respond physically? How does my body cope with the situation? Does it engage fight or flight? How does such a reaction look to the outside world? 

If a bear were to walk into the room, a few things would most likely happen. Taking note of only the physical - I will begin to sweat, my palms may become sticky, my muscles tense up as I look for a way out, my heart races and pounds out of my chest and my eyes widen. 

These are all examples of the many physical symptoms of anxiety. This is because anxiety is a natural response that can be used for self preservation. It saves me during moments such as this when we need it to survive. Everyone has a certain level of anxiety, but I have more than most. The problem that occurs with OCD is when my brain cannot necessarily distinguish between what is a rational fear and what is an irrational fear. For example, instead of a bear entering the room, it could be the germs on the door knob. One second I am sitting on the chair in the small room and the next, the germs are spreading from the door knob all the way around the room and I am stuck hiding in the corner.



I was once told that simply learning about anxiety decreases it by 10%. During the cognitive portion of my therapy, I learned many lessons such as this one. My therapist always had a great way of explaining things to me in a way that made a complicated study easy to understand. He would use visual scenarios and metaphors that would always stick in my memory. The bear walking into a room is one that I have used to help describe anxiety to people time and time again. 

By understanding the way my brain reacts, I am better able to catch myself when I am having a fearful moment. By explaining this metaphor, I am better able to explain anxiety to my friends and family in such a way that they may understand and relate.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Forever Frenemies


{ Long ago, when I first began Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT), my therapist referred to anxiety as something/someone different than I had ever heard it been referred to before. He called it the "anxiety monster." }

Growing up with OCD/Generalized Anxiety Disorder had become something that handicapped me. It was a part of my personality. It was something that was "wrong" with me. It was something I would never be able to get over. Anxiety and I were intermingled. We were one and there was no distinguishing me from it. Beth = anxiety and anxiety = Beth. 

What I didn't realize at the time, which my therapist had, is that anxiety does not define a person. It is not who they are at their core. What it is, is a monster. A monster who had latched onto every aspect of my life, every fiber of my being. So much so that it seemed there was no way to escape. 

When he began referring to it as an "anxiety monster," he made it something different -something I could defeat. He began to explain the way the monster survives and grows, constantly separating my sense of self from it. It fed every time I gave into a worry or a fear. Every time I acted on my anxiety with reassurance seeking, compulsions or obsessive behavior, it grew. It would trap me into a corner of a small room, covering the way out with it's giant, green, hairy body (or at least that's how I imagine it).

The more and more he spoke about this terrifying monster, the more I began to believe it was true. It is true. Anxiety is not something that defines who I am or who you are, but instead it is something for us to defeat. Now don't get me wrong, the monster will always live along side me. It will always lurk in my brain awaiting any opportunity it might have to grow again. The difference is that I have made him so small, so non threatening or scary, that I am able to live my life with a separation of what is and what was. If your giant, green anxiety monster is staring you in the face, do like I did. Throw a pink tutu on him and laugh at how silly he is and how ridiculous his ideas of irrational thinking are. 

As for my monster and me, we share the best and worse times, we argue with each other constantly, he sometimes has my back and I his. It is a strange relationship, but I guess you could say, we are forever frenemies. <3